Sometimes i forget what I like, I get lost in all the different pathways bdsm can lead you down. When I started it wasn't about the D/s it was about the curiosity I had for mayhem and pain and how violence made my blood burn and my breath quicken. How the simple act of hurting someone physically pleased me on a basic and primal level. I never thought that would be my first love, I thought I'd be the one in pain instead I found a sadistic streak running through my core tempered by shyness and a sweet nature.
The sweet nature shows itself in my giggles, and the joy I take in playing with a human puppet made of flesh and blood.
Next thing to make me sit up and take notice was breath play, the power, and the feeling of control gave me a taste for Dominance that even now turns me on. Though my first experiments were with plastic bags wrapped tightly around heads I'm just as in lust with manual choking, or wrapping an arm around a throat from behind and pulling a struggling body into me. I love to place my face against them and hear the struggle to breathe and watch them in the mirror start to go limp.
New subs always ask what I like and I like most but I love the basics, the games with an edge of danger and a whole heap of power to add spice.
I know I'm still to nice when I play, one day I'm going to cross that line and I think when I do it will stop being a game that makes me giggle. Not sure I ever want to take it so seriously.
The thing I currently have a fascination with...blood! My next sub will bleed :)
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